Monday, December 8, 2008

3. Is there a personal incident in your life you wish could erase?

The part that I wish to erase from my life is when I was young, careless of my cultural identity. When I was a child, after living two years in America, I felt so attached to America and started to neglect the Korean culture and identity. Because I had such a happy memory while living in America, I idolized American culture and didn't care much about Korean culture. Of course, this foolish mindset of mine lasted for only a few years. This memory of mine is not a terrible crime like the one in Macbeth, but I regret having such foolish attitude.

In this play, after murdering Duncan, both Macbeth and Lady Macbeth feel guilty and awful for what they have done. While Macbeth's cruelty and desire for power grows, Lady Macbeth declines and wants to escape from the haunting memory of the gruesome deed. I think this reaction of Lady Macbeth of totally plausible, since not everyone is always confident of what he/she does. Lady Macbeth, in this case, is probably in the situation where she somehow participated in a heinous crime, but wants to turn the time back and delete the deed from her mind.

If I were to be in a similar situation, I think I would be consumed with guilt, wanting to reverse time. Whenever I do something that is blameful, I tend to feel uneasy and to make effort to settle the situation. After all, if I become wrapped up in a murder, I think I would first feel extremely helpless, consumed with guilt, but trying to handle the situation later.

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